Metanoia

  6. iKON - Freedom "살기보다 힘든 게 살아갈 이유를 찾는 것" Finding a reason to live is harder than living Listen Here : Freedom 7. Miley Cyrus - When I Look at You   "You love me for who I am" Listen Here : When I Look at You 8. RAN & HINDIA | "N" - Si Lemah "Bila engkau berbeda Jangan kau benci dirimu" Listen Here : Si Lemah 9. Tulus - Manusia Kuat   "Kau bisa hitamkan putihku Kau takkan gelapkan apapun"  Listen Here : Manusia Kuat 10. Kunto Aji - Rehat   "Jangan berhenti Yang kau takutkan takkan terjadi"  Listen Here : Rehat ---   Ps. the number means nothing.

  The final year in junior high school, about two or one month before graduation. Anxiety attacks me. I didn't know that reading articles could cause this bad thing. At that time I planned to tell my friends about this, but in the end, I couldn't tell this to anyone. For the first time I felt this fear was before graduation. At that time I experienced what is said in the article. And I started overthinking because of that. It really scared me. I cried all day, couldn't sleep until I woke up every few hours, also in cold sweat. It was the worst time at that time, I did not know what would happen, I could not think rationally, and I really believed in the article. There is a certain time that I know if I'm past that time, it means I'll be fine. And yes, after that time passed, I calmed down again. And the other worst time at that time was after graduating from junior high school until before entering high school. I have nothing to do and no one else around me. A...

     

  I had thoughts like 'I don't want other people to notice my hard work'. That means I don't want people to think that I worked that hard to achieve this or that. You can think I'm weird, but that's me. 'What kind of thoughts do people think when they see me working hard?' And the word 'pathetic' comes to my mind. I know it can be an illusion, but still, I hate it. That's why I've never worked so hard on things. And maybe because of the mindset I have, I've never wanted things so bad in the past. But, when I see other people working hard, all I can think of is 'awesome', I know I'm not being fair to myself.  Now, I realize that this is my life--for me. And no one can take it from me. They have their own, for some greedy people they can take someone else's life, I won't let them take mine. I will work very hard for the things I want without thinking about other people's opinions. Whether it will succeed or fail,...